I’m sorry this hurts, that sometimes it feels as though it hurts to much to even cry. To imagine a pain that feels so indescribable it is nearly unbearable is beyond me. Loosing someone you have so much love for, so much heart for, so many memories with, someone who was your best friend. I’m…
Read MoreHolding in Time
This is so surreal, France. I?m starting to work through everything placed before me for this summer, and it?s slowly becoming real to me. Real that this time next year I will be enjoying spring, budding trees, and flowers sprouting out of the black park soil in Toulouse. That these times here at Stout will…
Read MoreBroken Day
It?s a constant awe to me how the Lord teaches us and stretches us. In those times when we feel as though we?re walking with God and then in a day everything changes and we?re thrown on our head. As though we finally looked to our left and saw how far God was from us…
Read MoreBeing Predestined
Kick-off weekend just ended and I am now ‘equipped‘ to go out and build up my ministry partners that will be with me while I’m in Toulouse this upcoming year. Both through prayer and financial support. There is a bit of nervousness, mostly just anxious to get started. I redid one of the notebooks they…
Read MoreLife Update+++
It’s a matter of Righteousness… Just got a couple thoughts and then a little life update. The more that I dive into scripture one truth (aside from the core truths of God?s love and grace) is showing it?s face to me for those who believe and trust their lives in Christ. That it is a…
Read MoreMarch 31
Ah what a day it is. Today is Jordans nineteenth birthday. Pretty exciting if you ask me. Unlike my brother I don’t take pictures of everything (though it would be cool), but it was still a good time to be had. This summer becky told us how she loved making a big deal out of…
Read MoreWhy is this so Hard?
I don?t get it, I?m having a hard time comprehending why I have such a hard time being here (parents house). When I talk to others about it I feel as though I?m asking for sympathy for something that I need to work through. There are parallels to now and when I realized I was…
Read MoreWhy I Stay at Home (Stout)
I always seem to dread coming to my parents house, which is probably one of the reasons I do it so infrequently. The main reason I came home this weekend was to be able to see my little brother. Kyle could be going into the military academy and that would mean a very short-lived summer…
Read MoreAnother Update!
So I’ve been slacking major on the updating of this journal but it will get better, because I’m starting to realize how much I’m suppressing my processing of whats going on in my life. This blog helps me do that. Random stuff; I won a free whole pie at baker square today in my SRVM…
Read MoreMoments in Eternity…
I wish I could have written more this past week but my hectic schedule didn’t allow for much of anything aside from ministry, class, and work as an RA. We, as campus crusade, had outreaches on Monday through Thursday and they went so well. Monday we had a spiritual interest panel with 5 professors from…
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