I see you walk these halls barely a hallow shell of anything worth realizing. Your smile that hides away the makeshift facade that only fools yourself, which the world around you sees right through to the bare bones that make up all you truly are. Clinging to anything or anybody who might help to hide…
Read MoreSpending so much time…
*I seem to spend so much time looking for a way to start these entries *Maybe I understand what it is she wants me to be, and realize that I cant be that for her With the dawn of everyday the procession of opportunity proceeds with their plan. Quickly running and to assure the completion…
Read MoreDefinition of Beauty
So often in life we pass by what is so eloquent and worth note that our lives seem drained of so much. Sending us wandering, distressed, for the source of what encompasses us. Bringing each of us to a point where we cant see beauty in what is in our presence and seek it from…
Read MoreThe Book Depository
Got back to school and actually had classes today. They all went really well, started out the day with my honors seminar. It will be a fair amount of reading and a little bit of writing, only a hundred-fifty words per class, with three essays (six-hundred words each) entailing the remaining 75% of the grade.…
Read MoreWelcome back to Stout
Im back at school now and its all good. Finally saw ned again today, it was weird to not see him once over break. However I need to be willing to do what he needs, not what it is I desire. I have no idea whats going on or what hes going through and thats…
Read MoreLetter from June 2001
Well this is a letter that I hope people find. In no way does it have anything to deal with suicide or any of that… I am Depressed. I would have written a bigger ‘d’ but I know people that have been lower and I myself have been as well. It just boggles my mind…
Read MoreCould it be ignorance?
Maybe its the fact that Ive spent so much time alone lately and contemplated so much about my life but the more I look into my self the more unsure I am of who this Paul Prins character is. Let me explain.
Read MoreWhy can I not be back there?
I love where Im at in life, I wont deny that. Being able to see the fruits of my labors flourish in front of me more then I ever dreamt they would. Its an experience I hope everyone has once in his or her lifetime. Thats not the aspect I wish was different though. I…
Read MoreMy Day
Well I called highline back today, let them know that Im planning on doing a summer project and wont be able to go out there for an internship. I will admit I was slightly nervous doing so, since this is a great opportunity for me. After talking for a minute Dave told me that if…
Read MoreFeeling Empowered
I know that right now Im stepping on toes. Im making them uncomfortable in this old industry and there really isnt anything they can do about it. For the past several years I learned from their lead and from their teachings. Despite how it may sound, I truly am grateful for all the lessons each…
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