*I seem to spend so much time looking for a way to start these entries *Maybe I understand what it is she wants me to be, and realize that I cant be that for her With the dawn of everyday the procession of opportunity proceeds with their plan. Quickly running and to assure the completion…
Read MoreDefinition of Beauty
So often in life we pass by what is so eloquent and worth note that our lives seem drained of so much. Sending us wandering, distressed, for the source of what encompasses us. Bringing each of us to a point where we cant see beauty in what is in our presence and seek it from…
Read MoreCould it be ignorance?
Maybe its the fact that Ive spent so much time alone lately and contemplated so much about my life but the more I look into my self the more unsure I am of who this Paul Prins character is. Let me explain.
Read MoreWhy can I not be back there?
I love where Im at in life, I wont deny that. Being able to see the fruits of my labors flourish in front of me more then I ever dreamt they would. Its an experience I hope everyone has once in his or her lifetime. Thats not the aspect I wish was different though. I…
Read MoreWhy I’m here
Recently this subject has repeatedly surfaced and I figured I would just write out my thoughts the best I could on it. I hope that you all can follow my ramblings and me for the next while.
Read MoreDeath?
Today I went to his funeral, Nolan Myers, and it was really weird, almost surreal for me. I didnt know him that well, really at all. We had bumped into each other in the halls once or twice and I had heard his name occasionally. I went to show support for classmates and the family…
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Where’s my Future…
What’s going on right now? For the first time in my life I think I know what it feels like to be spread to thin. I honestly am not sure what to do. I have this drawing homework sitting on the futon right now that needs to get done yet tonight. It’s just a reminder…
Read MoreThe American Dream?
I live in the land of opportunity, in a country where everyone has the opportunity to better themselves through their actions and work. That is the essence of the old American dream, the dream that has been replaced by people trying and hoping for something they dont deserve, a free hand out. There is the…
Read MoreLove’s a Bitch
*This is something I’m writing for a good friend of mine.* I wish that we could go through life and never experience pain. I don’t mean the petty pain of a cut or scrape, rather the pain of a heart torn apart. I’ve been there, I know how it feels, I know it all to…
Read MoreMan in the Mirror
Standing there in front of that reflective pane I see the reflection of someone I wish to be, someone who isnt me. He seems to understand everything that goes on around him, have this grasp of life and living. There is something about the look in your eyes, they look so distant from mine. As…
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