So I sit here, seemingly waiting for something to happen that won’t. What am I speaking of? The fact that I am always on the outside looking in. There are very few times when I’m asked to go out and do anything. It’s not that I don’t want to, it’s that it just doesn’t happen.…
Read MoreStudy: Desires?
For the past month there has been something that, time and time again, as been resurfacing in my walk with the Lord. Those things in my life that I desire are starting to play a more active and large part in my faith. As I?m faced with larger and more important decisions understanding my desires…
Read MoreNowhere to Stop…
My whole life has been lived on fast forward (or you could call it running into the future) since my depression started back in 8th grade. I think I felt like I could out run it and the feelings associated with depression, and that if I got to some distant point that it would become…
Read MoreLiving Grace?
Afterthoughts appear instantly Words confused and conditioned to hint nothing sometimes leaves me wondering then or not, time should slow for my head to stop spinning.. So it probably doesn?t make a whole lot of sense. So is it with most of what I seem to be writing since I got back from France. Not…
Read MorePoetry: Thorn
Thorn a thorn stuck my side sitting in awkward comfort wanting to loose it I touched myself seeking for a mark left the protruding hook fingers waiting…ready realization strikes lost hands misled movable extremities cautiously extend, silent vision goes dark, it moves, you move open eyes reveal solitude mind reveals reality with one traceless thorn…
Read MoreAwesome Weekend
Wow so that was an amazing weekend with the guys. From just hanging out to playing one of the best games of capture the flag I?d ever been a part of. So I have a bruse under my left arm, my left hand is pretty scratched up from jumping down a hill to get into…
Read MoreBroken on my Knees
Humbly I stand before today before realizing that my feet aren?t holding me up. I?m on my knees realizing what lays ahead and how little I know of what is head of me. Finally realizing that the hands that are embracing the floor aren?t able to reach forward to you Father. That the feelings of…
Read More2am Monday
I wasn’t really not sure what to title this entry. While I’m working really hard on releasing my personal concerns and frustrations to God and trusting Him with them this month I feel as though I should write about what’s gone on this past week. The speaker last Thursday got to me, he was talking…
Read MorePoetry: What I’m scared to say
Fluttering lights flicker past Windows streaked by rain Tonight as the sun sets Hidden behind confused clouds Ringing themselves into nothing As horns sound in the distance Turning my eyes to streaks Drips who glide so consistently Its rhythm sends my mind. Away, back to you Thoughts suddenly flood in Remembering nights alone with hope…
Read MoreHow Far…
If you were to start walking how far would you go before you reached the end? What time would you walk until, what hour would you turn around at? This weekend has made something real that I wasn?t sure could happen. Not matter how many times I had seen it foretold I still put it…
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