What to Be…

For the past several months there has been an on going struggle that has been gripping me. Tonight I finally started to realize what it truly was I am having such a hard time over. What to be? It seems like such a basic question, one we even ask to elementary students (thought their answers…

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Long Distance with Jordan

So two things have been going on lately. My super nostalgic trip as I’m updating my new blog software with all my old posts. It’s crazy to read where I was at back then and to see where I am now, how I’ve changed, the things I’ve left behind and those which I’ve been so…

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Now Jordans really Gone

It’s really weird to be here, about to lay my head to rest without being able to say goodnight to her, to wish her the best tomorrow, or to pick on her knowing that on the other side of some screen or phone she was laughing. I try to avoid being sappy when I can,…

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Bittersweet Goodbyes

So the year is over, I?m at home and it?s been quite the while since I?ve updated this blog of mine. Trust me I?ll get better at updating this now that I?m back into somewhat of a concrete schedule. It?s a but surreal to be home though, to be gone from stout knowing that I…

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Mercy requires Justice

The concept of loving on someone to get them to heaven, of being the physical representation of Gods love for them has really consumed my thought this past year in my evangelism. It was my thinking that if people only knew how much God loved them, they would desire to start that personal relationship with…

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So… GOD ROCKS!

This has been the most amazing end of a semester to date. I’m watching lofty prayers answered harder and more firmly then I actually believed they would have been. However I’ll be the first to admit how surreal it seems, how it is as though amidst some of my doubts God is shining so stinking…

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Lost so soon…

I’m sorry this hurts, that sometimes it feels as though it hurts to much to even cry. To imagine a pain that feels so indescribable it is nearly unbearable is beyond me. Loosing someone you have so much love for, so much heart for, so many memories with, someone who was your best friend. I’m…

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Holding in Time

This is so surreal, France. I?m starting to work through everything placed before me for this summer, and it?s slowly becoming real to me. Real that this time next year I will be enjoying spring, budding trees, and flowers sprouting out of the black park soil in Toulouse. That these times here at Stout will…

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Broken Day

It?s a constant awe to me how the Lord teaches us and stretches us. In those times when we feel as though we?re walking with God and then in a day everything changes and we?re thrown on our head. As though we finally looked to our left and saw how far God was from us…

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